Parenting 101

Thanks, mom, for the title to this blog. I texted her today out of pure frusteration. Macy wasn't sleeping, she was so cranky, I hadn't had lunch and the only bread we had was molded, David walks in as I was just getting her to close her eyes and he wakes her up. On top of that I had a bad headache and just wanted to click my heels and drift away into dreamland. "Welcome to parenthood 101," my mom said. Is there like a textbook for this course? A spring break? Is there a quiz everday? I need a syllabus! I feel like my days are nonstop. I don't have a single second to think about my own needs. I look forward to 5:30 when I can take a 5 minute breather in the bathtub. Here I am now, writing this blog while hiding out in the bathroom. Yes, the bathroom. It's the only place I can't hear my baby cry. When she cries, it just upsets me and I want to rush to her every need. Sometimes, in parenthood 101, we need to find a few minutes to not think about anything but ourselves. It keeps us sane. On the brighter side, Miss Macy is growing so much! She has cracked a few smiles, but those are rare. I hope she isn't an unhappy child. She coos on occasion, but those are rare too. She still has fussy days, and I think, "Lord, get me through to tomorrow." She hates sleeping...especially by herself. So not my child. I hope one day she loves to sleep like her mommy. She will only sleep soundly in my or her daddys arms. That's it. But her down anywhere else and she'll let you know who's boss...quickly. It's like she has a mommy radar. Is this normal? I have learned SO much in the past month and a half. Being a parent is a lot more than I ever thought it could or would be. You can't really appreciate a parent until you are one...the endless nights they stay up rocking their child to sleep...the countless days they spend hoping around the living room trying to soothe their child for a nap. It's real. I'm living it. Is there ever a final exam in parenting 101? Or will I be preparing for it all my life?

Sleep, what's that?

Macy is 6 weeks old this week, isn't that just amazing? She has reached so many milestones the past few weeks such as rolling over from her back to her stomach, cracking a few smiles here and there, a few little giggles, batting at toys, and copying mommy's faces. She loves to stick out her tongue and open her mouth wide after she sees me do it. We have such a good time playing and "talking" when she is awake and alert...at 5:00 am...yes. I am so thrilled to have this amazing little baby in my life, and I can't wait to watch her grow and develop even more. I really can not believe that 6 weeks has gone by. It was just yesterday that I was sitting in the hospital waiting to dialate. I have mostly enjoyed spending time in the bed with her while she naps, but we have made a few trips out to shop too. Shopping for a baby girl is SO Much more fun when she is shopping with you. We got her newborn photos from KAK the other day, and I love love them!! She has such an awesome way to capture the light and the color in all her work. Macy wasn't too happy during the shoot, but possibly at her 3 month shoot she'll give us plenty of smiles. Being a mommy is so fullfilling, and I almost can't believe that having a child was out of the question just a few months ago. God truely worked miracles here, and gave me a miracle to hold and kiss on. Looking forward to seeing her walk and talk :)