Wait patiently for Him to act.

Warning: Reader may shed tears...Emotional blog up ahead.




I found an amazing bible verse today that really spoke to me:

Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you. Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for Him to act.
Psalm 37:5,7

As I watch my belly grow, I can't help but to become a little afraid of the months and years ahead. Every mother questions whether she will do everything right, and what if she doesn't? I already know that for the first few weeks of raising my child, I will be scared to death and worry about what I am doing right or wrong. And I have no doubt that those fears will resurface every once in awhile as my child reaches their milestones in life. I overheard someone the other day say that you will never stop worrying once you have a baby; you'll worry about labor, then you'll worry about whether they are eating enough or getting enough sleep, then you'll worry about whether they are crawling right or eating the right foods. Worrying should be a mother's middle name. If you ask my mother what my middle name is, she'll already tell you its "worry." I have always been that way, and I can only imagine how it will get worse once March approaches. Someone also told me once that your baby will have no idea if your doing things right or wrong and to just go with the flow. In a way, that makes me feel a lot better knowing that my child will love me unconditionally no matter how many times I mess up early on. I know that by taking one look into their eyes, all the pain will be worth it. I can sit for hours and stare at my ultrasounds...I found myself one day sitting in the floor of the soon to be nursery just flipping through the ultrasound album over and over. It amazes me how that beautiful face came out of such love. You never can really grasp what love feels like until you look into the eyes (or ultrasound eyes) of your own child. That child came to be because of you and your love for your spouse....isn't that just amazing?

Amazing it is. The bible verse above is very calming to hear and understand. It helps me to know that everything will be taken care of as long as I trust in God. I realize that God only puts as much on your shoulders as he thinks you can handle...and that realization has brought me very far in life thus far. I have not been through anything that I didn't come out fine on the other side. He walked me through every tribulation and bump in the road. Now, I trust in him to carry me through the rest of this pregnancy and through my journey of motherhood.

I will never stop worrying, as "worry" is my middle name, but I have faith that good things will come. In just a few months, our lives will change forever, and I will forever worry about my child's wellbeing. But, I will:

Commit everything I do to the Lord.