"You gonna kiss me or not..."

I heard a song I really liked on the radio this morning "Are you gonna kiss me or not," by Thompson Square. They remind me of Lady A, and so of course, I loved the song immediately. The song starts out with the couple's first date and the guy wondering if she was going to kiss him because he knew they both really liked each other. As the song progresses, he asks again if she'll kiss him after they say "I do." I remember David and I's first kiss. We started dating on June 11, 2004. After our first date, David had written down the date and my phone number on a post-it and stuck it in his wallet. About a year later, I had found the post-it and was absolutely shocked that he had written the date down because I was curious as to when we had started dating. I knew from that moment on he was "the one." Our first kiss happened a few days after our first date on the front porch of my house on 5th street. Yeah, it wasn't the best kiss in the world and there definitely wasn't "fireworks" but I didn't care because I was so in love. He used to buy me flowers almost everyday with a card stuck on my car door from the night before. It would always make my day 100% better after knowing he was thinking of me before going home that night. After we were dating a few weeks, I don't think he ever went home. We are constantly together and were inseparable. My mother-in-law probably thought he had moved out of town. That was the absolute best summer of my life. I was head over heels in love with this guy and I knew we would be married some day.

Like all relationships, we had our ups and downs. There was a few times were we had mini "breakups" and didn't hardly see each other at all. I think it is imperative that every relationship has a few of these breakups because you end up closer on the other side of them. I can recall one of them that totally changed my life and my love for him. I don't remember exactly what we were fighting over, but David had decided he had enough of me and dating and just wanted his "old life" back. To put it bluntly, he wanted to be the single, care free man he once was. We decided to meet on the soccer fields behind the YMCA late at night and talk. He would not look me in the eye and he would not touch me. I remember feeling like my life literally had ended. I was so empty and blank inside. He told me that was it, and he wasn't coming back. Nothing would change his mind. I sat in my car reading him all his love letters begging him not to let me go...the night ended with me watching in my rearview mirror as he left the parking lot. I can not even describe to you how my body felt at that very moment. I was numb. I couldn't even grib the steering wheel to drive home. I sat there for atleast 2 hours watching the stoplight behind me blink from red, to green, to yellow, and back again. It was almost if the world was still moving and I was stuck behind. Moments like these really show the test we put our relationship through. I kid you not, I spent about a month in solid depression. I cried driving to school, I cried during class breaks, I cried driving home from school, I cried at dinner, and I cried myself to sleep every single night that month. I was stuck in time and there was nothing that would carry me through. Obviously, we got back together at some point, and I never ever wanted to go through that again. That was a major bump behind us that I was not willing to repeat.

On May 30, 2009, I married that same guy I fell in love with 6 years ago. And I haven't stopped falling for him since. To know that he is coming home to me is the absolute best feeling in the entire world. I am so deeply connected to his soul that nothing will ever stop me from loving and caring about him. Every relationship must go through bumps in order to cross the next bridge. We definetly had our share of bumps, but the view from the other side is perfection. He didn't even have to ask me if I would kiss him after our "I do's" because I was ready and waiting. That day was the best day of my life. I would not be complete without David as my life partner, my husband. I would feel as if the world is moving and I am still stuck behind. My world moves because he is in it.

On June 27th, 2010, we found out we were expecting our first child. Can I change my mind and say that was the best day of my life? No, I'll just put it at close second. Because that day would have never happened unless we had gotten married. We, two people in love, have created something so beautiful and so sweet. Our bumps and bruises led to complete perfection, a baby. Granted, my world is moving a little faster than it was 6 years ago, but I would not change a single moment. Two completely different worlds and physical bodies have created one in the same. Our blood, our minds, our souls, our love, and our personalities have combined to create another human being.

I just want to take a few moments and thank my husband for all he has given me. He gave me his heart, and while he may thought he had taken it back a few times, it was just an illusion. His heart is forever mine and always has been. My world is moving because of him and my world is now changing because of him. He puts the laugh in my laughter, the deepness in my soul, the breath in my lungs, the joy in my heart, and the softness in my touch. I love you, David...You gonna kiss me or not?