Stuck in a hard place...

I am trying to decide whether to say...
1. "AHHHH, this is the life!"
or
2. "I want to be normal again, go shopping, walk around, go out, get out of this house!"

1. Ahhh, this is the life. I am currently sitting on the couch (with my feet up) watching David scurry around while cleaning the house. I have orders to sit and relax. I don't have to clean, cook, or do laundry. I can wear pajamas all day and never get dressed!

2. I just want to be normal again. It is the last weekend before Christmas, and everyone else and their family is out shopping and absorbing all the Christmas spirit in the air. I am stuck in this house with 2 dogs and a cat who keep terrorizing my Christmas tree. I can't walk or shop or do anything I desperatly want to do right now. I want a few more weekends alone, on a date, with my hubby. I want to buy Christmas presents in the store rather than online and shipped to my house. I want to ride around and look at Christmas lights. I want to put on a cute little maternity dress and go out to the mall and show off my belly. Rather, I am stuck in the bed in pajamas.

My dilemma is an obvious one. I am stuck between enjoying this bedrest and hating it. Part 1. of me is thinking this is heaven and part 2. of me thinks this is like hell. Then, I look down at my huge belly and remember who is inside of me. My little girl, my daughter, is inside of me and she is number 1 as of this moment on. The day she was conceived was the day that my life was no longer top priority. However, I didn't need to put my life in the back seat until now. It is all becoming reality that raising a child is no easy task. Sure, I was like a lot of mommies who thought being pregnant would be a piece of cake. Boy, were we ALL wrong.

It seems as if the minute that I stepped into the 3rd trimester, my body went all to hell. I pray this isn't a sign of more to come. David's horoscope was very ironic yesterday. It said something on the lines of: today was like a beam into the future, it showed you how your life is becoming. I thought, wow, being in the hospital with just one little girl and her health and wellbeing on our minds is what our future holds. She will forever and always be on our minds.